I’m a romantic fool who tends to daydream alot about my very own fairy tale come true. I know fiction from reality but at times the lines become too blurry.

I’ve spent most of my life seeking for my “Prince Charming”. Now I kinda think that all is BS. lol. My faith is love is dwindling. People say if you stop seeking for it, it will just come knock at your door. Well, duh. I did, but most of the ones knocking are nonsense men who wants something else. I’d like to think that sometimes, we need to push or give fate a hand to make things happen. And again.. I did, but still same weirdos knocking.

Oh! Have I told you I’ve never been truelly inlove? …True Love, I meant. I haven’t but I did find something close to what is a potentially be love. I’m still debating it to myself if whetheir this or this isn’t.

Love for me is a special feeling you have for a certain someone that you care so much, this can be mutual or not. True love is another thing. It’s deeper and stronger than ordinary love.. unconditional love. This is mutual. It involves two people with strong love and bond for each other that can’t be unbonded no matter what. Infinte and last for eternity. The other half of each others souls, both complete each other.. each spending the forevers with.

Back to seeking and not seeking. heheh.

Why are there few good men out there? I meant those who are romantic fools who longs for true love instead of something else. The ones who’ll fight for love and do everything, and i meant everything, in their power to make their love a reality. Okay, I’m not talking about psychos. lol. Just those few men who will climb the highest mountain, swim the deepest sea, and move mountains and continents just to be with you.

To love and be love is the greatest thing one could have. ILY <3

I’m transferring my new account blogs to this old blog.

The new blog will be exclusive for something dirty, kinky and sexy… “Sex in the City” style.

Its gonna be nasty. heheh

Few nights ago.. I was walking in the dark feeling miserable with myself when I came across an old lady in the pouring rain with no legs.

She was at crossroads literally dragging her weak skeleton body in the pavement trying to cross the street. It was one of those dark nights where the raindrops hits your skin like a stone, the coldness rips your body with shivers. Her husband was besides her limping, dragging his one leg with a piece of stick, unable to carry his wife. All he could do is walk slowly beside her. It was a bitter cold.

There were more than 20 people sheltering in nearby boutiques and store, most with umbrellas, staring at some spectucular scene unfolding in the middle of the street. Cars passing by as if they saw nothing.

I was freakin furious. How could be people so heartless. I know they pity them but how could no one dare to help. People just stand there, safe from the rain, while this old lady was dragging her body across the cold pavement in the pouring rain.

Everyone saw the heart wrecking scene but no one dared to help.

I hired a guy with pedicab to help me fetch the old lady from the pouring rain in middle of the street. I gave her some few bills then she left.

Two minutes after I saw an old man carrying his child in corner, cold and hungry. People just pass by without care. As if he and the child doesn’t exist. I gave him some few change and then left

What’s wrong with this world? I wish and hope people stop and care. I still believe that there’s good in everyone’s soul. There are still few out there, no matter how bad they are, who has still good in their soul. Have Faith

I’ve seen so a many people die under my watch, young and old.. strong and weak. I could see the desperation in people’s faces. A man who hasn’t sleep in days keeping watch of his dying brother who can’t seem to decide which to buy first: antibiotics, meds to keep his blood pressure up, or intubation set. A man in pain seeing his wife and unborn child dying because they could not afford hospitaization. A woman’s only child dying in my arms. An old, thin as bone, man carrying his sick adolescent son for miles in his back. A man who sees dying as an only option to spare his famiy from pain. A woman keeping watch 24/7 of his dying husband. A man whispering “I love You” to his wife’s last dying breath.

I’ve seen and been in so many situations that can make a strong man crumble. What bothers me is the fact that the world is just taking a quick glance. People seems to be pre-occupied with non-essential things. No Love.

But throughout it all, i have hope. There’s always good in everyone’s soul, not the other way around. People are filled with love, they just being corrupted by the chaos in this world. If you look closely inside their soul.. you’ll find love

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(enclose is the video i’ve made which got me disabled for the 1st time in fb, the other time.. another story. lol) 

It’s been awhile……….

I kept reminding myself to do what it is needed to be done; Yet, from time to time, I kept stairing at this blank pages and confused about where to start.

Prelude Blog:

In my previous Blog, I had this wonderful idea of making amends to my past “My Name is Earl” (tv series) style.

After days turned to weeks and weeks turned to months – It made me realize one big flaw. Making amends is a fanatstic idea but getting hooked or almost obsess with this idea is somewhat ’static’. What I meant is – Past is past. Making amends is great but we shouldn’t be too consumed about this so that we don’t neglect the Present and Future.

We should live life to the fullest.

Past, Present, Future – should be balance.
Past made who we are now. Present shape our future. The Future lies in everyone’s hand.

ps
I think my words are going in circles and confusses everything

Truth to the matter is – as well as Making Amends, I would also be doing Random Acts of Kindness. Wow! Hope everything will work out.

God Bless!

In this fast phase world, most of us tend to take things for granted. The beauty surrounding us seems to be too abstract for us to take time and enjoy it’s beauty.

It’s been awhile since i’m planning to make this quest happen.

Day after day, I kept on staring the blank pages for an hour so. My mind clouded with so many ideas, yet still, I was back to these darn pages again. Only the music as company.

You don’t know me (that’s understandable) nor what i’m trying to imply. I’ll try to make this as simple as possible……….

I was a very angry person. As far as I can remember, I’ve been always the troublemaker (arrogant, cruel, risky, etc.). Stretching or bending the rules is the name of the game.

Anyways, too much for that peculiar and confusing intro. lol

My Name is Earl (not me but the tv series).

Well, I want to do what he intends to do. Not the Karma thing but the making amends.

I don’t want to be what i used to be. I want to become a Better Person. To do this (like Earl’s list), I’ll be correcting my mistakes through a series of Uncensored List (upcoming blog); for which I’ll personally, one by one, make amends to all of these.

This Blog is already way too long for me to post the list, so, therefore a separate blog page will be created for the sole purpose of making the online list of what I intend to correct.

I sure do hope that people, who for some reason, came across my blog – Suggest anything that they could think of that would help me make this quest possible.

Miracles do happen!

 

I’m not into online hype, except for blogging at my spare time.

Too many weirdos online, that’s why I don’t chat.

At times when boredom kicks in, I look for ways or shall I say – a more calmer alternatives of relieving boredom.

You see, I am in away – a hyper person. I used to go out seeking thrills (nothing immoral), party, adventures or something different. Thus, in few occassions, this leads to something much more complicated.

Atm, I’m currently hibernating on my too hyper self.

I don’t believe in finding a relationship or more, online. Meeting would be great compared to chatting.

Yet, as we all know – we live in a fast phase world. Too busy to pay much attention to anything. Life goes by without us, totally enjoying or living to the fullest.

It would be a shame not to try anything different from our ordinary task.

Just for the heck of it, I tried a different tactic - I Blog

GB

A Thrill or sort something Different (nothing explicit pls) – w4m (Downtown)

At times, when you get insanely bored, Alot of crazy stunts happen.
I used to that. To think of it, I still do.

Thank goodness, few days ago i just posted a random Blogs @ CL.
It was my 1st time to post an AD.

Just for the heck of kicking boredom.

It was unlikely of me.
Yet, the fact of posting an AD anonymously without the intentions of meeting strangers.

Messages came pouring in. Didn’t expect this.
Guess, there are alot of people in this world who are as bored as I am.

Excerpts @ CL:

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Reply to: pers-302980672@craigslist.org
Date: 2007-03-30, 5:14AM EDT

A way to to bend from ordinary days……

When boredome sets in, a breath of fresh ambiance would be great.
Aside from “doing” something extraordinaray, A mystery could fuel the energy (not implying something else).I’m an extrovert person (party, dining out with friends, adventure travel) who gets bored and had not much to do, sometimes.

I don’t chat.
Nor I’m implying or inititaing something lame or explicit.
If you think I am: F^@# Y%*$

If you happen to feel the same way as as i am, during those lousy days, we have something in common…… talking or emailing will do.

A mystery might open new doors to thrill of a new adventure.

God Bless!

  

Sixth sense or a Speacial Extraordinary Gift/Talent! – w4m

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Reply to: pers-302960640@craigslist.org
Date: 2007-03-29, 11:52PM PDT

If you are or know someone who have a sixth sense or a speacial extraordinary gift/talent………..I think it’s time to converge to make a difference. A need to use this gift/s for a better purpose, for the good of all.

It seems to me, there’s not much info nor legit website links that allows fusion of knowledge for this kind of thing.

Pls contact me if you are interested in the above proposal.
Thanks

God Bless!

Too many things to do……..

I planned to blog all my perspectives and insights on the latest happenings in my so called life, yet few weeks had past and still I was too busy to put my thoughts into actions.

A lot of things have just happened in a short span of time. Scanadals, affair (not mine – a friend’s confession), gender issues of a guy friend, love dilemma (still not me), etc.

Anyways, gtg meet a up with my old college friends…….

The Blog can still wait

God Bless!

Once started as an answer to boredoms during my freshmen year in high school turned out to be something big and a bit complicated.

People say that we should leave the future things the way it is and stop interfering on it. Deep inside, I’d like to think that …………. “What if we could change the future for the Best”? I meant, making it into a good and better place.

In another perspective: It’s just like you acquire a certain knowledge that you will go berserk if you drink too much vodka, You will then try your best to avoid being intoxicated. Thus, something not so good has been avoided. (confuse? me too)

I’m not here to convince anyone of something I’m not sure if I am.

But I do want to make a difference, in a good sense, and rekindle the love that most people tend to take for granted.

There are times that my futuristic dreams and instincts came true. I could foretell some future world events and certain things to happen in the near future.

Not that I want them to came true. In the contrary, I’d like them not to come true.

Knowing the future has its little glitches. What I want to know is how to stop a not so good prediction from coming true. Not that I want to change the future. Like what I’ve mentioned earlier, I just want to avoid certain things and make a better – good future.

I am dreamer.
Dreamer of love in the hearts of people. A Better Future.

What people tend to forget; Buildings are built by dreamer and Space frontiers are explored by dreamers.

Prayers do help.
I hope, in this fast paced world, people would also make a difference in this world. Becoming a Better Person.

God blueprints our future.
It is upon our good judgment to make this into a reality.
I hope we will make the right choice.

God Bless!